David became extremely depressed and suicidal when
his wife left him for another man. However, it became clear that
David had also experienced several other times in his life when
he had become extremely depressed, even in childhood. The depression
which haunted him, had played a role in the breakdown of two significant
relationships because his partners had found it difficult to live
with.
David was asked to read a self-help book from the recommended
book list on this website. He read this over the first month and
also received weekly therapy sessions. David began to understand
that his depression was partly caused by negative beliefs or ‘sneaking
suspicions’ about himself which had begun very early on in
childhood. He learned to look at these beliefs in detail and to
challenge their validity.
The next phase of treatment helped him to notice that the way he
lived his life, in particular, the way he tried to make up for feeling
bad about himself, also played a role in causing and maintaining
his depression. For example, David believed that he was unattractive
and stupid. Although he believed this, it was very clear to me that
his belief was incorrect. However, because he believed it, one of
his responses in life was to try to ensure that other people would
like him despite his perceived faults, by acting ‘the underdog’.
David described how he always tried to help people but that he tended
to do this to the detriment of himself. He noticed that other people
often tended to abuse his kindness and in the end they tended to
treat him badly, leaving him feeling worse about himself and more
convinced that his beliefs about himself were true.
The majority of treatment involved providing David with a detailed
‘map’ of each of the patterns that he tended
to use in his life, which although understandable, were in fact
leading him to feel worse and enabling other people to treat him
poorly. David then began to work on each of these patterns by setting
himself weekly, achievable goals to change his patterns of behaviour
through careful small steps.
At the end of therapy, David was no longer currently depressed but
he had also been able to challenge his long standing feelings of
low self esteem which were based on his negative and unfair beliefs
about himself. David’s improved sense of self esteem should
help to prevent him from suffering another period of severe depression
in the future. David’s treatment lasted thirty sessions. |